I'm sick of being crabby. I've been tired, grumpy, and pessimistic. I've been trying to force myself to count my blessings, as they say, and they are many. Unfortunately, they have come riding on the backs of dumb and even horrible things which could have gone much worse (there is the blessing) but which speak louder to my tired mind than the good parts.
What can I do? I wish there was an obvious answer. I can, though, list what my sister, my daughter, my husband, my mother and others would tell me.
1. Eat better. Think about what you are feeding your body and you will not wonder why you are grumpy.
2. Exercise. Endorphins, endorphins, endorphins.
3. Cut out negatives. Friends who aren't, etc.
4. Relax, read, play with your camera, write. Do something creative.
5. Go outside.
6. Make a plan.
7. Play
My self talk usually goes like this:
1. You are so unorganized.
2. You haven't done that yet?
3. You lost it?
4. You're getting old.
5. You're gaining weight.
6. You never remember anything that's important to anyone else.
7. You can't get anything right.
8. You exaggerate everything you say.
Hmmm... I see a pattern here.
So what can I do? For starters, one call to find a new eye doctor will help with... at least three of the 15 things on my lists. My second goal, for now, will be to start being more exact with my speech. I've been called out on that a couple times in the last few weeks, and maybe if I can manage to stop exaggerating, my anxiety will go down. I don't, of course, exaggerate EVERYTHING I say. :)
